Karkat x Depressed chubby reader

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Published: Apr 11, 2014

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You looked down at your stomach. That fat just sitting there, disgusting. You hated yourself. You have always had problems with your weight and even your closest friends teased you about it. You wanted to be beautiful like all the other girls. No one liked a fat girl. You just wanted to be skinny and fit into the clothes other girls do. You are _____ _____, and you are gross.
"Hey idiot." Karkat said walking into your house. He is your best friend but, you still can't tell him about your anorexia or depression. "Hi." you said quietly. He sat on the couch. "I'll be right back." You said. "Okay." He replied not looking up from the TV. You walked over to the scale. 280. You chocked back a sob. Ew! How did you gain the weight back? You felt frantic, your becoming fat again. You went into your bathroom and sobbed.

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A few months went by and you stepped on the scale. 53. Disgusting! You needed to be skinnier. 53 is a gross number. You hear a knock at the door and quickly open it. It's Karkat. "Hi." You said but got pushed. "Move fatty!" he yelled. You stayed quiet. "what's wrong." You finally said. "What's wrong? What's wrong?! I hate you don't you get that?! No one likes you ______! Someone needed to tell you the truth!" Stunned at the words but, no tears fell and you just bit your lip. "okay, thank you for telling me." You whispered. "Yeah, whatever." "And....No one likes a fat girl, it's ugly." He said walking out the door. He still thought you were fat, too.

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That night Karkat had guilt. He can't remember why he felt like he should say all those things. He got out of his hive and sprinted to your house. He new you had insomnia like him. He finally came to your house and knocked on the door. No answer. He used the spare key you had given him. He opened the door. He looked everywhere but, the basement. He new you hated the basement for it's creepiness but, he to find you.
He opened the door and slowly climb down the stares. "______?" He gasped and chocked back a sob. Your lifeless body hanging from a rope from the support beam. You looked pale and blue with some purple. All he could hear was the sound of his heart beat. Your body is so skinny, and cuts are all over your motionless wrist.
Karkat had told you that no one would ever love you, that you were fat and that drew you over the edge. "______! I'm s-so sorry!!" He sobbed to nothingness. He knew you could here him but, he had done this to you. He had flushed feelings for you, and he killed you with evil words. There was a note under your body that he carefully picked up and tried to read with blurred eyes and shacking hands.

To Karkat,
I'm sorry you ever got the chance to know me.
I know I'm ugly and fat. I just wanted to feel pretty for once.
You might not care. And, I don't blame you for hating me.
I should have never been born, I caused so mush people pain
by knowing me. I just wanted to let you know, I forgive you.
I love you and I'll remember you. You don't have to remember me.
I'm happy to know you won't have to deal with me anymore.
I did it, I finally killed the thing that caused people so much pain.
Yet again, I love you and I'm sorry.

Love, ______.